Adventures in Perfectionism

adventures in perfectionism

Anyone who knows me could tell you that I am a perfectionist.  Not an obsessive perfectionist, but you know, an obsessive perfectionist.

Most of the perfectionist thoughts are aimed at making me a perfect human.  This can be very damaging.

But it can also be good.

If there’s something I’m bad at, I’ll often throw myself into the thing until it’s better.  

I have a few fears, like everyone does.  But instead of avoiding them, I say to myself, “Wouldn’t it be a great idea to conquer the fears, so you’re not a weak human?  You need to be strong and perfect.”

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Quirky Character Quirks

It snowed here.  It only snows a few times here, and the snow isn’t that great typically.  But we got a several inches, and I went out for a while.

Small thoughts:

  • snow covered trees change the whole landscape
  • fog on snow is really pretty (not if you’re skiing, then it’s terrifying)
  • my dog could be a model for a hallmark Christmas card.  he likes to sit and stare up at the falling snow.
  • that crunch when you step on dry snow
  • it’s so quiet outdoors (unless you’re one of those people who like to scream to break the silence)

While I was outside, I was thinking about characters.  I half expected to find a lamp post in the middle of my woods, but that sadly didn’t happen.  I wondered if I’d be able survive if I did find Narnia, considering that a lot of the food there (turkish delight for example) would not be good.  On one hand, the evil White Witch wouldn’t bother me because I don’t eat sweets, but on the other, could I survive? Continue reading

an end

an end 2
Now the night is coming to an end
The sun will rise and we will try again
Stay alive, stay alive for me
You will die, but now your life is free
Take pride in what is sure to die
I will fear the night again
I hope I’m not my only friend
Stay alive, stay alive for me
You will die, but now your life is free
Take pride in what is sure to die
-truce, twenty øne piløts
End (noun): a point that marks the extent of something, the point where something ceases to exist, an outcome worked toward, cessation of a course of action, pursuit, or activity.
 
2017 has come to an end.

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Dear Younger Me

dear younger me.PNGDear Younger Me:

Hey you, yes you.  Eight year old me.  I know you’re thinking about other worlds, places, magic, unicorns, and other things that don’t really fit into everyone else’s real life.  That’s okay.  You’re not weird, even if the other kids think you are.  You’re going to learn to embrace that for who you are.  Because you didn’t really fit in this world.  You’re going to create new different worlds that those kids could never dream of.  And you’ll fit in there.  You can be as crazy as you want to be, and trust me, you will.  

You had stories pulsing in your blood, even if you didn’t realize it.  You were always making your friends act out in elaborate tales, sometimes against their will.  You created a lot of half-finished ideas, but left them because you thought they were bad.   Continue reading

July Wrap Up (and llamas)

july wrap up

So instead of having these weird update posts at random times, I’m going to do a monthly wrap up/update posts.  Doesn’t that sound nice.  So people will actually read these things, I’ll try to keep it interesting and give mini reviews of stuff, or interesting blog posts I’ve seen, music I’ve been listening to, etc.  🙂   Continue reading

30 Song Challenge

They say the key to a teenage girl’s heart is through her music.  (Actually, I don’t know if they say that or not, but I said it.)

Anyhoo.  Since you guys have no idea who I am apart from a random girl on the internet, maybe this will help.  (Note: I changed some of these because they were weird or I didn’t have answers for them.)

This is a challenge that’s been circulating the internet, not a tag.  So If you want to do it, do it!
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